Grandma went to ICU yesterday night after knowing her heart stopped beating for a while.
I was just back from dining with my other Grandpa and Aunt. Someone was driving us home, but when I saw that there was a huge ambulance block our way inside to the dead end, I suddenly realized that it was from my house!! I got out of the car and rushed into the house. The first thing I saw was that "emergency bed". I dashed upstairs and saw my grandma, maids, grandpa, doctor and all the civil defence people. Everything happened so fast that I was still in point of shock when they were checking her up and brought her downstairs. The only time I was able to talk to her before she was dashed to the ambulance was when they were strapping her to the "emergency bed". I got next to her, touching her hand, looking right into her eyes and said, "Grandma, don't worry. God is with you. Just stay calm and everything will be fine. We'll be praying for you at home." Then they dashed her out.

At that point, I really was still a bit calm. I talked to the maid and just asked her what happen. Turned out that everything happened after her dinner. She was brought to the bed. Then she complained that she had chest pain. Then suddenly, she was turning blue. One of the maid was trained if this case happened. She checked her pulse and shook my grandma. Then she started breathing again. The doctor and ambulance were called.

Anyway, in the end I kept on thinking what should I do at this point. I couldn't possibly stay at home while my grandma was rushed to the hospital. So I told my sister that I wanted go down to hospital. So we called the cab and rushed to the hospital with my grandma's primary caregiver. Once reached, we just waited for the longest time. Doctors rushing here and there constantly. I hate hopitals. Such a depressing place. No one looks happy at all.
The emergency doctor's news was quite horrible. She said my grandma won't live after tonight. We all broke down, but I really just put my trust in God. I do believe that everything is in God's hand. So i prayed constantly asking God to let her hang in there while the rest of the family are flying over. And yes, God did answer my prayer. She was moved to ICU room and the doctor there said her condition was much better than before. PHEEWW! I thanked God for that miracle. She actually collapsed right after she reached the hospital. This itself is already a miracle. Even though she collapsed, the hospital got the equipment to aid her and get her to breathe again.
So now she's in ICU with breathing tube and lots of other tubes. Looking at her like that, I can't stop myself from tearing. I did get a chance to talk to her in her coma. I just said that God is with her and that the kids are on the way to see her, even her grandchildren. As I said that, I teared. I kept on saying that God is with her and that she should keep her heart clean all the time. We told her not to worry coz God is in control of her life. This time, she teared when I said that. Mind you, she was in a coma, but she could hear whatever we said. That is the point where I broke down and say, "God, I want to spend my time with her as I haven't been spending most my time with her. Give me the chance."

I just wanted to stay by her side -- wanted to stay in the hospital, but won't happen because I can't. Wanted to meet her in the hospital now, but can't because I have school. Dad and Grandpa are still insisting that I go to school whenever I have the opportunity. I'm obeying them, but I really can't wait to just be with my whole family.
At this point, there isn't much things to do except praying and having faith that God holds my Grandma's future. Whatever it is, God has everything in control. Everything that seems so bad, God will turn it to good. As I always believe,

Everything happens for a purpose.

Keep her in prayers always so that she can see her whole family united again *hugs*

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