Before I blog on my BIRTHDAY SURPRISES, I think this is more important now....

MY UPDATES!! Hehehe...

Today is so great. I got to learn one VERY important lesson in Life Group. It's taken from 2 Cor 13, "Love is patient, Love is kind..."
Is so simple, but yet it's not as easy as it seems also. We discussed on the notion of "kindness". Being Kind is simply being Friendly, Compassionate, and Forbearing.

Here's what I learn...
Of course, Friendliness is self-explanatory. Compassion is understanding and facilitating the needs of others. I realize that many times I tend to just focus more on knowing the needs of others and then feel sorry for them. But I learn that being kind/ compassionate takes ACTION. I will start doing this from now on. Then FORBEARING... It's a big word with deep meaning. According to www.thefreedictionary.com Forbearing is the act of resisting -- To be tolerant or patient in the face of provocation. It's simply to be patient to the people around you especially those who do you mistakes.

This is soooooo not simple for me as sometimes i want things to be MY way. Or sometimes I'm easily annoyed or hurt -- TOO SENSITIVE.. Therefore, sometimes it is so hard to forgive or tolerate people who just annoy you. But here's the VERY thing I feel that God is dealing with me.

Many time I've been doing the same mistake OVER and OVER again.. repeatedly falling into the same sin or just simply, sin.. But as said in the Bible, the Lord's LOVING-KINDNESS endureth forever! And yes, this is GRACE. No matter how much I keep on doing the same mistake, God still forgive and tolerate me and giving me second CHANCES. For me, after realizing that "hey, when people keep on doing me wrong, I got annoyed and don't want to forgive. But when I wronged God, He's always there to receive me when I repent."

This obviously doesn't mean that I will take for granted the GRACE He has given. It does make me feel like who am I to judge or to keep a grudge on other people when God himself constantly pour His Grace to me... Now, I feel sooo excited on not to keep hurting God by falling into sin, but always keep my conscience right in order to please Him. So First thing I will do is to forgive those who wronged me and respond correctly to the situation with the way God wants me to respond, which is GIVE GRACE aka FORBEAR!

Yup, that's all for now!

Please pray for me also.... EXAM FEVER!!!

1. English Mock Test (practive test before FINAL test, MON)
2. Conducting Assessment (Music module - Next week, FRI)
3. English FINAL Test (Next 2 weeks, MON)
4. Math Quiz (Next 2 weeks, Wed)
5. FINAL PERFORMANCE for DRAMA I (Tue, Oct 30)
6. Song Performance (Music module - Next 2 Weeks, FRI)
7. FINAL PERFORMANCE for DRAMA II (Sat, Nov 3)
8. DRAMA ESSAY (Due: Wed, Nov 7) -- THIS is a major essay. My tutor very particular also. NEED God's Wisdom, eloquence, understanding, prompting, revelation, and most importantly, FAVOR! I'm already starting to research. Reading 5 books at 1 time just for this essay!!! Coz we are really writing from scratch -- only 1.5 knowledge on the subject! Must do all readings and analyzing by ourselves! Aaaarrghhh!!!
9. Math Exam (Fri, Nov 16) -- NEED GOD! Give up on my own strength already. Cannot understand word problems yet! Still learning and practicing! The word problem questions for the past years held 40% of the whole exam grade! The whole "exam" notion is scaring me already! Need God's wisdom and prompting, esp during the test so I won't be stuck or get the wrong working! I really want to score. I don't want this subject to pull all my GPA down.
10. Drama JOURNALS (Nov 19) -- currently, I'm pending my journals due the other URGENT workload that needs to be done. For this task, I really need God's revelation. I have no clue what to write coz the class is still too abstract to me. I understand a bit of the whole lesson (tutor not yet settled in. just came to spore.)

Okay, that's ALL my Assignments and exam! Really need GOD's HELP! I admit that I can't do anything without God's Strength. I don't want to waste time complaining Non-stop on the subjects I dislike. I don't want to stress out coz the workloads are driving me NUTS! I barely have time to go out or just get a time out. I don't want to be lagged behind.
I want to score. That's my goal...to bring glory to God and to show that I can only do things with God coz He's the Almighty one.

Please pray for me and my health too. Thank you!

*** Watch this space for updates on my BIRTHDAY SURPRISES! COMING SOON! ***

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